Monday, May 4, 2009

good news, bad news

First the good news: I can officially say I'm more pregnant than I've ever been, praise God! It seems surreal. Mentally, it was tough to get over that 'milestone', but I'm happy to be passed it!

Now for the bad news: mentally and physically, I'm breaking down. It's been 4 weeks of this (with many more to go, hopefully) and I already feel like a crazy person. Since my progesterone injection last Thursday, I've had unbelievable pain on my left side. It hit a bad spot--like a nerve--and I was in agony to the point of immobility. For that, they gave me Vicodin, which helped with the pain, but made me feel crazier than ever. And, after it wears off, I become nauseous, waddle my way to the bathroom, then throw up. Awesome, I think I'd rather suffer in pain. Heating pads, ice packs, Tylenol offered no relief at all. It is feeling somewhat better today, thank goodness, since I'm due for another shot on Thursday.

Another piece of bad news: I went for another ultrasound today and my cervix has started funneling some. In other words, it's beginning to open at the top. I am still waiting on my doctor to come 'explain' things and give me the official results. I will let you know when I hear from him tomorrow.

Please pray for me. Pray for my family. Pray that this pregnancy continues for many more weeks. Pray that God strengthens me physically, mentally, and spiritually. This is much tougher than I had anticipated and we are in need of your prayers. I suddenly feel like I'm in over my head.

21 comments:

Vickirdh said...

Ann Marie, this post from you makes me so sad. I hate that you are having to go through all of this. But you are one of the strongest people, mentally and spiritually, that I've ever met. I just know that this feeling of breaking down that you're having is only temporary and that with the prayers of so many people and with your strong faith, you can make it through these tough times. Stay focused on the reason you are there---to keep baby girl "cooking" as long as possible. I will definitely say some extra prayers for you and your sweet little family. Take care. With love and prayers, Vicki

Mountain Girl said...

God will sustain you! I pray that your cervix behaves! And that your "craziness" goes away! :-) Is Coy all better now?

Jennifer said...

Oh goodness, when it rains it pours. I'm so sorry you're having a rough time - seriously, I can't imagine being in a hospital for that long...who wouldn't seem a little crazy at times? And then to add the pain of the progesterone shot on top of that. I really, really hope your cervix stays where it is and doesn't change any more at least for awhile. And I'll pray for your sanity too. :)

Congrats on making it this far though...that's awesome!!

Rachel Lee Broussard said...

You poor little thing! I am so sorry hun. I hope your pain ends soon and your next injection is not painful. I pray for you every night and I will continue to through your struggles. Is there anything that you would like? Any books you've been wanting to read? Any sweets? Please let me know...If I were in your position I would need lots of distractions. Seriously, please let me know. Keep your head up.:)

Kelly said...

You are in my prayers. You are doing so great and making a HUGE difference in your baby girl's life.

Allison said...

Oh AnnMarie, I wish I could do more for you. You and your family are in my prayers.

RyanAndrew2007 said...

Hang in there Ann Marie. I have a good friend who just delivered at 36 weeks after spending 16 weeks on bedrest. 6 of which were in the hospital with a .7 cm cervix. It was exhausting and trying for her, but oh so worth the effort in the end. You can do this. Your family can do this. I have been where you are. No one can fully understand bedrest unless they have been there too. It's soooo much harder than most people understand.

I'm praying for you and your family.

Jodi said...

I've been thinking about you a lot and congratulations on meeting that milestone. I'm so sorry that things are tough right now. Your baby girl has one tough mama and I'm so proud of everything that you're doing. Please know that so many people are praying for you and I know God will give you the strength (in every sense of the word) to get through.

Buttercup said...

My prayers are with you!

Lauren said...

I'm so sorry to hear that you are uncomfortable and in pain! We are praying for you and your family!

Amanda said...

I will be praying. I'm so sorry you're having to do this!

Snap said...

You are where you need to be! Hang in there! We and *the big guy* have your back!

The Silva's said...

Oh, my sweet firend, you guys are in our prayers daily. Know that God has your path decided and the He will lead you through the rest of this pregnancy. Please let us know if there is anything you guys need!!

I am Trish Marie said...

I am sorry that this week has been tough. It must be hard to keep going at this pace. Keep faith. Know there are many people praying for you. I hope that you get to feeling better, and that your doctor is able to give you some encouraging news.

If you need anything brought to you (books, movies, food...do they allow meals snuck in to you?!), please let me know. I have to bring Emmi to an Audiology appointment tomorrow, so I will be out that direction...

The Barfuss Family said...

Praying for you! I thought about you the whole time I was in the hospital Friday being monitored and wheeled down for ultrasounds. You are so strong! You CAN do it!!!

Robyn said...

I'm praying, praying, praying for you!!! I wish I was there so I could come sit and play games with you and chat and just while away some of your time.
Asking the Lord to fill your heart and mind with the peace that passes all understanding. Asking for all pain to be removed, contractions to stop and cervix to stay long. Asking God to make the time go by rapidly and that He helps get you and sister to a full term birth.

Love & Prayers from up north!
Robyn

Hilary said...

Thinking about you today and praying for peace and for you to be pain free...You are stronger than you think!! Hang in there Momma you WILL do this you and baby sister!! :)

Pete, Alison and Charlie said...

Hi Ann Marie, I've been reading your blog for so long now, since just after Coy was born. I've been thinking of you so much these past weeks - it must be so hard for you being stuck in hospital away from your lovely boy, with all the uncertainty about his little sister too. I've never had premature babies, but both of my boys have had major medical issues (our firstborn, Will, died 15 minutes after he was born, and our second son Charlie, who's five, has an incurable heart condition)so I've done my time on the 'hospital rollercoaster' too! I have blogs for both boys if you're bored and fancy something to read! Anyway, I just wanted you to know that I'm thinking of you, and hoping and praying that Baby Sister stays right where she is for a good few more weeks, and that you are given a pain-free and peaceful time as you wait for her to arrive. With love from across the pond, Alison x

Becca said...

Hi - I don't know if we've met before, but Chris and my husband (Bobby) played baseball together at Rice. Terra forwarded me your blog.

The Bryan family will be praying for you!

Becca

CoyBaby said...

My prayers are with you, and it's always a good sight for me to see a young person carrying on the name Coy. I am a woman in Iowa with a rare name, Coy. It is a much more common name in the south, but I will pray for lil' Coy.

Momofsix said...

Ann Marie-
I happened upon you from Mckmama's site- another person posted a prayer request for you. I am unsure of how your story goes- but you are in my prayers.
Are you still currently in the hospital?
Since you live in the same city as I do- is there anything I can do to bless you?
Angie
www.helpmeettosam.blogspot.com